chillaxr6

bye bye

2007-05-17T22:30:56Z

well sorry to say but i thought id drop you guys a line or update or post or do something to let you guys know i might be dropping off the face of the planet since im changing jobs and without internet . . .

im leaving the IT world and moving into the security world and becoming a security guard for another logistics company so once again im staying in the field i started in 10 years ago. Ill be without internet for god knows how long but with the better pay and stuff i might be able to afford the wireless which i need at home . . .

hope everyone stays happy and safe and nothing majorly goes wrong as i wont be here to give you a shoulder to cry on or ear to bash :( stay safe yall and see ya when im back up and running but no eta yet :( :):)

chillaxr6 @ 2007-05-15T06:26:00

2007-05-14T20:27:22Z

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butterflies

2007-04-19T22:41:32Z

well my stomach is doin butterflies something shocking as im not sure im doing the right thing . . . well after 10 years in the IT industry ive decided a change is in order and leaving the field. I am currently sitting the course to get a security licence and turning into someone who walks around with a baton or a gun :P oh well life goes on and im scared . . .

well lots has happened and im officially resigning today so i got butterflies for am i doin the right thing? and wanting to leave as i havent been happy here for a long time but since ive had a mortgage and couldnt afford to be unemployed now im nervous taking the first step to a better life . . . at 2:30pm im resigning and walking out and am so nervous as i dont know how it will be taken and what the company will do, reactions of friends in the company and stuff.

on a lighter note i thought i would insert some pics of my puppy who is now 12 weeks old. she is a staffy x bull mastiff so gonna be a monster of a dog but she is so cute atm and her favourite thing to do atm is crunch her squeaky toy at 3 - 4 am :) oh well life goes on she is so wonderful and has brightened our lives no end.

even when she is a pain in the ass and causes havoc you cant help but love her . . . and she cocks her head to the side when thinking or trying to work out what your saying like where's your rope or where's your toy. she is pretty smart as well with her knowing how to fetch, down, whose at the door, sit, wait, sleep and half toilet trained, no and hugs . . . she is pretty smart but still knows how to cause trouble and always tries to push the boundaries and im sure if i start doing night shifts with my new career she will protect our place to the death . . . always a bit worried leaving my wife at home but with this little monster its a lot less i gotta worry about. anyway enjoy my pup meika . . .

couldnt resist

2007-03-27T02:28:50Z

well i couldnt resist and have to brag and show off my little girl . . . Last week i was lucky enough to be in the right place at the right time . . . This little staffy x bull mastiff puppie was given away to a good home and ooh it was my home . . . hahahaaa She is 9 weeks old now and is very cheeky and loves us very dearly as i left her at my mum's today and she was whimpering at the front door for us to return . . . I love her to death and hope she grows big and strong. . . so here are some of the pics :)

she has messed up our carpets a little bit but for the most part follwos me and thinks im god :) i love being the master. . . in the words of my hero . . . "Now i am the master" . .

mookie

2007-03-20T20:02:55Z

well howdy folks its been a while and i thought id like to update with a little pic of my new baby girl . . . a beautiful 8 week old staffy x pup. We named her Mookie . . .

back from the clipsal

2007-03-05T21:57:25Z

well after being away for a week interstate to watch the most visiting touring car event in the world im sadly back at work . . . The clipsal 500 broke hte world record on the weekend for most people at a touring car event in the world which shows from the concert we went to on sunday and couldnt move . . . it was huge and i enjoyed every minute . . . my wife and i enjoyed ourselves watching and hearing the big block v8s cruise around the track and all the crashes and close racing made the trip worthwhile.

we made it safely back and spent heaps of money and learnt a few things along the way.
1. you cant get no love sharing a room with another couple.
2. you cant get to sleep above a nightclub that shuts at 5am.
3. you cant get any privacy in a room shared with 4 people.

thanx to ppl that replied and missed me in the week while i was away . . .
catch up with everyone soon and i might post some pics . . .

chillaxr6 @ 2007-02-23T14:02:00

2007-02-23T03:10:18Z

well its been way too long since posts of a personal nature i suppose and well im starting to get to another point in the road where you find out how the road pans out . . . you cant see the road ahead but you can guess and i suppose prepare for the tribulations ahead. . . im at a weird place mentally atm with so much going on and life being so full on i really need to find time just for me . . .

i started using my punching bag and trying to get back into shape and have found with a bit more weight behind me my punches and techniques are bigger but sloppier so i enjoy finding out where i need to improve. having said that im finding my mental state the same so much going on and its getting sloppy and messy inside . . .

everything is coming along i suppose the way it should with the new house and the amount we've done to the place and increased our personality in the place and i find more and more i stare off into my fish tank and wonder is something better out there. I am in no way looking at a new relationship or something like that but when i was 22 i was ahead of everyone i was earning good money, had heaps of spending money, was out 5 nights a week drinking and clubbing and jetskiing on a weekend.

these days i stay at home and try to get motivated to do something but just dont . . . i guess im in a bit of a shallow ditch where i know im going places i just seem to not be going as fast as others . . . this moment or feeling of failure will pass as it always does but when caught in it you just wanna do nothing . . .

ive found rereading my journals sometimes seems that i go in cycles every 3 or 6 months and the same feeling comes over me . . . oh well im sure the week away will do me wonders as im off to the first round of the v8 supercars and no work as work has been getting me down the most since i am now the lowest paid person i know in the IT field . . . ive been out of uni for 10 yrs and have only gone up 15k others have skyrocketed to six figures . . . is my mr joe average good enough to keep my head above water . . .

ooh look whats in my house . . .

2007-02-14T20:12:44Z

well its been so long since ive updated anything as nothing really interesting has happened since i got married as ive been flat out trying to get our house all sorted and might post some pics later when thats finished of my little abode . . .

anyway here is an update of my fish tank which a few ppl have been asking about so here is my pride and joy . . . my snowflake eel was originally about 12 inches if that and the thickness of your little pinky fingernail . . . now the fat bastard is the about 18 - 20 inches and the thickness of 3 fingers . . . anyway enjoy the following pics :P the camera shots werent the best as they mostly came out blurry . . one day ill learn how to use my camera properly . . .

relationships . . .

2007-01-14T21:32:03Z

my god its hard to write on this damn journal anymore . . .
everytime i write something down its like im venting hard and it just doesnt seem like me . . . I had a fight with my wife last night and the stress of working and the new house and it still looking a mess is getting to us. My wife gets the shits about the house and well over xmas and new year on my days off im doing stuff and/or chasing something or doing something that doesnt constitute relaxing but its getting hard to relax at home due to the place always looking a mess.

I found logic doesnt work with my wife and she gets the shits when i dont back her up. the classic example i got atm is she works 10 days straight, i work 5 days straight and spend my weekends or days off chasing my tail trying to get other stuff done around the house. I have to do the boring things alone as she is always working like going to a 1yr old bday party being the only one without kids. Life is getting tougher and tougher as more pressure is being put on us for things to get done. there is simply not enough hours in a week.

why is it that the more we grow closer to someone we feel like we are further and further apart . . . I wish i knew what im rambling about but there is so much going on in my head atm i dont know where to start and/or stop. im confused and not completely happy with where i am in life and am wondering will it all change and just weird.

my wife and i are both feeling the same way but know things are gonna get better its just that there is so much crap going on and it is crap as its all little petty things and things out of our control that we have to deal with.

i wish i had a week off to just sit down and relax and not have to go out to parties or do any house work and just bring the center back to me instead of running around like a chicken with its head cut off . . .

im in a funny and unusual place for me atm and words dont really convey where im at but oh well life goes on . . not sure where my heads atm . . .

ooh look who i am . . .

2007-01-12T01:46:28Z

ganked from another bored LJ soul . . .
Your results:
You are Dr. Doom

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Blessed with smarts and power but burdened by vanity.

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BTA split

2006-11-07T02:18:20Z

as some of you might be aware i have a medium 6ft 300l / 90g saltwater tank and my BTA's just split over the weekend . . . im very excited about this move as i think im getting the hang of this keeping a reef tank happy. I am maybe moving in the next two weeks so ill be posting some pics of the new house and the moving of the fishtank :) been so long since ive updated this might seem a little lame :P

oh well ive been so busy with hardly anytime to just sit back and relax . . .

I HATE INSOMNIA

2006-10-17T23:45:02Z

Well i hate insomnia as last night i had the worst case as i think i slept 2 hrs all night and just feel so crap this morning it aint funny . . . I also hate it when plans dont work and your left with crap after the fact . . . I was really looking forward to getting into my house on my bday for some celebrations . . . we got nothing . . . dinner was ok with family and i enjoyed it pretty much but it just seems so i dont know boring . . . nothing exciting happened and i got nothing exciting yet . . . ive been told i have to wait til at least next week for the house and thursday or friday for my bday present . . . should i be upset i didnt receive it on the day ???

oh well shit happens and life goes on and on on without sleep . . . i just want go home and sleep but ive got to work a 12 hr shift today and not get paid for 3.5 hrs of it or get time in lieu . . . fuck i hate this job sometimes . . .

ganked from Ophya

2006-10-17T08:09:16Z

God the trouble i went htrough for this shit . . . ooh and thanx EP

Who are you?:
. Are we friends?:
. When and how did we meet?:
. Do you have a crush on me?:
. Would you kiss me?:
. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
. Describe me in one word:
. What was your first impression?:
. Do you still think that way about me now?:
. What reminds you of me? :
. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
. How well do you know me?:
. When's the last time you saw me?:
. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?:
. How have I affected you?:
. What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
. How long do you think we will be friends?:
. Do you love me?:
. Would you hug me? :
. Physically, what stands out? :
. Emotionally, what stands out? :
. Do you wish I was cooler?:
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. Am I lovable?:
. What do you think my weakness is?:
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. What makes me happy?:
. What makes me sad?:
. Do you think I could kill someone?:
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
. I died from suicide:
. I said I liked you:
. I kissed you:
. I lived next door to you:
. I started smoking:
. I stole something:
. I was hospitalized:
. I ran away from home:
. I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
. Personality:
. Eyes:
. Face:
. Hair:
. Clothes:
. Mannerisms:
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WOULD YOU:
. Be my friend?:
. Have sex with me?
. Lie to make me feel better?:
. Spread rumors about me?:
. Keep a secret if I told you one?:
. Loan me some cash?:
. Hold my hand?:
. Take a bullet for me?:
. Keep in touch?:
. Try and solve my problems?:
. Date me?:

Quiz ganked from A friend

2006-10-15T20:45:26Z

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you / comments and asks! So then ask me questions!!!
*************
1. Taken a picture naked? Yes
2. Painted your room? No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Drove a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? Yes
8. Stole money from friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? Yes
10. Been in a fist fight? Yes
11. Snuck out of your house? Yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? Yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? Yes
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? Yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone die? Yes
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? No
23. Slept in until 3PM? Yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? yes
27. Played dress up? No
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? Yes
32. Felt an earthquake? No
33. Touched a snake? yes
34. Ran a red light? yes
35. Been suspended from school? No
36. Had detention? Yes
37. Been in a car accident? yes
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? Yes
40. Pole danced? Yes
41. Been lost? yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes
43. Felt like dying? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? No
46. Sang karaoke? yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? Yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? No
50. Kissed in the rain? yes
51. Sing in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? No
53. Had a dream that you married someone? no
54. Glued your hand to something? No
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? No
58. Sat on a roof top? yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? No
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? Yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? Yes
64. Broken a bone? Yes
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? Yes
68. Cheated on a test? No
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes
70. Slept naked? Yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? Yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Played a prank on someone? Yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? No
77. Failed a class? Yes
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? No
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? No
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? No
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes
84. Thought about running away? Yes
85. Ran away? yes
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
89. Made a parent cry? Yes
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? ???
92. Dated someone more than once? No
93. Have a dog? No
94. Own an instrument? yes
95. Been in a band? yes
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
97. Broken a cd? Yes
98. Shot a gun? Yes

Go Ford Go

2006-10-08T22:14:31Z

Well what an interesting weekend if ever one has been had . . . Firstly Go Ford Go and no one is a more deserving winner of the Bathurst 1000 than Craig Lowndes. Craig was Peter Brock's protege and was actually the one who told Craig to go to Ford i believe. Peter Brock was his mentor and Craig didnt let him down. I awoke at 7:30am to a phone call from a mate who wanted to come to the big day bbq and i told him i was gonna watch the start of the race at home and head to the bbq about 11 or 12. He wanted nothing of it and wanted to be at hte bbq for the start of the race so i got up early and went and did all the running around before the race started and the dude decided he would come 45 mins late and not bring anything to eat or drink so he had to go get it on the way . . . so we turned up late and had some nibblies. One of my other mates rang and said he would be right over as his power had cut out . . . 10 mins after he arrived our power cut out . . . Ive never seen so many ppl jump on mobiles and call everyone to find somewhere to watch the great race. We heard that 15 mins away there was power so we all grabbed our grog, meat and nibblies and jumped on the band wagon ( 1 harley, 1 suzuki and a hilux ) and did the bolt to my mates house. Wwe didnt miss anything as just as our power went out a safety car came out and was still deployed as we puled into the driveway at my mates house . .. a great day for FORD as Craig Lowndes brought it home and won the race . . . nothing beats the big race for spills and action as over half the field crashed and burned . . .

nothing else is really interesting as its so boring just packing and trying to save money . . .
only 8 days till we get the keys to our new house and i get one hell of a birthday present . . . a new house !!! hahahaaa

ganked from ophya

2006-10-05T05:49:46Z

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know things about you. I don't care if we've never talked irl. You are obviously on my list, so let me know with whom I am friends! JUST HIT REPLY comments will be screened..

1.Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of Live Journal?
2. Whats your philosophy on life?
3. Would you have my back in a fight?
4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
5. What is your favorite memory of us?
6. Would you give me a kidney?
7. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
9. Can we get together and make a cake?
10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?
11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
12. Do you think I'm a good person?
13. Would you drive across country with me?
14. Do you think I'm attractive?
15. If you could change anything about me, would you?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
18. Would you go on a date with me if i asked you?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

ganked from Alex :)

2006-10-03T03:27:16Z

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
chillaxr6 goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Musketeer.
alexdolas tricks you! You get a piece of paper.
bitchingbeauty gives you 1 orange passionfruit-flavoured jawbreakers.
blueyed_nurse gives you 10 milky white mint-flavoured gummy bats.
brandasours gives you 5 pink grapefruit-flavoured gummy bats.
empty_dreams gives you 16 softly glowing mint-flavoured gummy worms.
eternal_pariah tricks you! You get a rock.
jeffsworld gives you 13 pink cola-flavoured wafers.
ophya gives you 9 yellow passionfruit-flavoured jawbreakers.
remorseful tricks you! You lose 32 pieces of candy!
sharrn gives you 13 orange tropical-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
chillaxr6 ends up with 35 pieces of candy, a piece of paper, and a rock.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

chillaxr6 @ 2006-10-03T13:07:00

2006-10-03T03:18:26Z

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included.
I tag :

alexdolas( as i know he will like to be tagged :P), bitchingbeauty, brandasours, eternal_pariah, i_heart_glitterand sharrn ( another one who loves to be tagged ).

1. I am an only child
2. I have double jointed hips
3. I collect shot glasses ( 56 atm )
4. I have watched Man of Fire 20 times
5. I am overwieght but know how to throw it around :)
6. I am moving in 2 weeks

I HATE BEING WOKEN UP

2006-09-26T23:03:10Z

Last night i was asleep nice and early about 10pm i think and my wife decided in her extreme wisdom to come home and want to have a conversation and hug ans snuggle up to the sleeping bear which was me late last night after her shift at work. I really am not one to snuggle with once im asleep and i was scared awake last night and i had fists ready to swing thinking someone was breaking into the house and kinda freaked her out a little and she had been out in the cold wind and i was snuggled up nice and tightly in our waterbed when she decided to throw the covers off to be able to get in under them and then try and snuggle into the warmth . . . i was a cranking little thing when my nice warm environment was interrupted . . . now i know how animals feel when they get moved or we dig out their homes . . . oh well a boring and pointless post but hey you get that . . .

now this is me falling apart

2006-09-21T07:00:53Z

why is life so difficult . . .
im finding the threads of my sanity are falling through my hands and falling to be blown away in the wind . . .
at this point in my life i should be over the moon and enjoying life and living it to the full but i cant get past my work . . . Ive tried hard in this job to make a difference and keep everyone happy and get systems working and just being a fucking work horse. I find myself feeling less and less coming to work and doin anything remotely creative. Im losing my sanity as my company thinks im worthless and not capable of shit. this is so beyond a joke im just about ready to go into work and walk and say now you fucken find someone to do the shit kicking work and network stuff ive been doing but someone else has been getting the praise and rewards for!!! im so over this place i should just go out and find another job . . . oh well shit happens

why does life never balance itself . . . why is everything goin fine with our house and looking to the future seem to be going strong and work so far gone its not funny. the stress is affecting my home lifenow and i feel myself ready to snap i feel so much like just beating the fuck out of something just to get back to normal. i feel so gone that i cant talk to my wife about this crap as i feel so bad that i cant stick it out at work and dont want her to stress about it . . . i feel like all my friends are overseas and interstate and i cant just sit down and chat with anyone. . . i just feel so alone and crap at this moment i dont know where to go from here . . .

you might read this and think fuck he whinges and god whydoesnt he just get over himself . . . well maybe i should and just dont give a fuck like a used too years ago . . . before i found something worth giving a shit about . . . oh well im sure ill get over this and through it or whatever shit ppl say to do just really needed somewhere to vent and boy this is a vent . . .

ganked from ophya

2006-09-19T07:37:04Z

A - Age that you lost your virginity? 23 hahahaaaa

B - Band listening to right now? the vacuum cleaner

C - (Dream) car? BA XR6 TURBO UTE

D - Dad's name? Ronald

E - Easiest person to make you laugh? My Wife

F - Food you miss most? Spag Bol

G - Any encounters with ghosts? Maybe.

H - Person most hated at the moment? An old friend who aint a friend no more

I - Interesting unknown fact about yourself? I got double jointed hips

J - The first letter of the first person who broke your heart? D

K - Kissing with eyes opened or closed? Pecks = open Longer = closed

L - Last time you did LSD? Never

M - Most memorable moment you can think of in a minute? My wedding

N - Nicknames? Chilla and Bear to name a couple

O - What's your most valued possession? My fish tank

P - Paper or Plastic? Plastic

Q - The last quote you heard: Get an umbrella when the shit hits the fan

R - What are you allergic to? Stupid people

S - Song you sang last? Break Yo Neck

T - Time you woke up? 8am

U - Favorite pair of underwear? Anything with room :)

V - Vegetable you hate most? Brussel Sprouts

W - What is your biggest tangible fear? Retribution

X - X-rated love life? grins sure is

Y - Year you were born? 1977

Z - Zodiac sign? Libra

freakin out

2006-09-19T01:44:39Z

well it seems life never rains it pours . . .

well today is the final day of the cool off period to us buying a house and we've decided to bite the bullet and jump into the property market. Very scary i know but hey someone has to do it. I was hoping for a nice easy transition to my new home with a few days off to get settled and move and organised but someone aint shining on me at the moment as my supervisor has just decided to rsign today which leaves me the most knowledgable person in the company on the IT systems and hardware. It totally scares the shit out of me with the workload and pressure that wil be coming my way the next few months while they decide if they want to hire someone and if something major goes wrong whose in front of the firing line. People have said you will have no worries you know what your doing and how things run but im still shit scared as my safety net has just been taken away.

well i guess here is the big jump that ive been wondering will come my way i suppose and i will need to step up to the plate and take control of what happens. Im freaked out totally at the moment as im woried if buying the house is the right thing to do and now my job is so up in the air and im scared for the first time in a long long time.

so in the end it never really matters since the work will eventually get done and life will look up and it come out of the slump . . . just very scary times ahead and i dont want to be taken advantage of and get shit dumped on me.

chillaxr6 @ 2006-09-11T07:21:00

2006-09-10T21:44:37Z

well the world this monday morning seems bleeker than ever . . . in the aftermath of last week's sad departure of 2 of our nations greatest celebrities alive and my friends dad's passing there seems to be a big hole in my heart atm. Normally celebrities dying doesnt affect me at all but these have immensely due to the nature of how they went. Steve Irwin went doing something i have done without blinking an eye and Peter Brock went doing something us boyz and cars always do. Somber times over the weekend just past as drinking and finding the holes that some ppl leave in your life brings you down big time. Its amazing how much you rethink or reflect over your life and loved ones when someone passes. The more i have my wife in my life the more ive noticed and get feelings of loss when someone dies. Before i met my wife i was a rock i guess . . . didnt care or worry about anything did things, not thinking of repercussions or what ifs. Now every decision i make is based on what ifs or how would it affect her. . . Its funny how much she has improved my life . . .

anyway for those who have lossed loved ones i feel your pain and am currently working through mine. bit of a pointless post but a post none the less . . .

ebay - cherry has finally been popped . . .

2006-09-08T05:21:28Z

well nothing exciting to mention apart from me BUYING A HOUSE !!!
I got the paperwork last night to be in debt up to my eyeballs and a roof over my head where if i want to put a poster up on the wall i can instead of paying dead money in rent . . . Oct 17th is the date of settlement and low and behold my bday as well !!! i get a house for my bday . . . life seems to flowing along strongly with the threat of pregnancy always over my head and me always being told im stressfree and careless but really with a smirk or sly grin on my face and a phrase to die for " Trust me " just dont cut it for my wife . . . hahahaaa Anyway after ive calmed down about my recent purchase and ability to tell ppl if you dont like it get the fuck out !! which i cant wait to do as it will be my house . . . im dreading moving my 330l reef tank but it should be fun and games moving all the stuff from our little 2 bedroom apartment and into our new residence of 3 bedrooms and a backyard garden shed.

anyway digressing slightly i bought a nice new video card off ebay surprisingly for under half price which kinda astounds me still but hey aint like an internet . . . oh well now ill be able to get back into the trenches and blood sweat and tears with GHOST RECON ADVANCED URBAN WARRIOR . . . me and my mate had a good time over the weekend playing terrorist hunters . . .

oh well bragging over now :P . . .

OMG NO MORE CRIKEY

2006-09-05T02:35:58Z

Well i guess some ppl around the world dont know the CRIKEY call from the aussie known as the crocodile hunter has ended. . .
its quite shocking to know that this classic aussie icon died doing something as simple as diving with sting rays. . .
it brings home the realisation of how easy life can be taken away when you think everything is going sweetly and your in no danger. Apparrently from what ive read the ray got spooked and speared him in the chest with the big barbed tail. . . ive been diving so many times and have swum with some of the world's most dangerous creatures and have had no fear or even slight recognition of danger from something like a ray, oh well i guess when your time is up your time is up . . . how unbelievable that the great crocdile hunter whose life revolved around the worlds most deadliest creatures of snakes and crocs and he is brought down but something so freaky as a tail strike from a sting ray . . .

R.I.P STEVE IRWIN 4/9/06